Another Trip to the Hardware Store

Well, it has been a few months since the last post. At that time the car was in the shop and I was at Starbucks waiting. Here it is in November and I have experienced a lot in these few months. The summer had a lot in store for me, I had no idea. Some of the highlights in no particular order:

I reconnected with my son, well actually my foster son...it's a long story...lost about 10 pounds and keeping it off, that's still a work in progress...made tough decisions about where I was stuck in life and decided to do something about it...released someone who released me long ago...tackled my fears and became stronger...gave up some bad habits...decided that I didn't want to live my life hiding things from the person I am supposed to be sharing my life with...came clean to myself on my faults and am now learning to embrace all that is good within me...spent some time with just me which included me riding my bike on the lake while I was on vacation, that was a good day! ...I became clear about what I want in my life, got rid of distractions and decided that listening to my heart isn't a bad thing...I became more honest than I ever knew I could be and mainly to myself...still learning how to love myself, each day that becomes stronger...took a leap of faith and stepped out there...turned 44...started figuring what my life should look like and making steps to see a completed picture...dated...fell in love in a brand new way with a brand new person...struggled through to victory.

My life is currently looking a lot different these days and should continue to change with the coming winter.

R. is in the process of moving and finishing off some home projects as the days become numbered. I think we will be making plenty of trips to the hardware store together. It's like I am doing a restoration of me, running to the hardware store to pick up a tool or an item that I know I need, then returning home to find that I'm still missing a piece... or the item that I thought would work when I got it home just was the wrong thing altogether so then I have to make another trip to get those missing items, you feel me?

It sure feels like the missing piece was waiting in aisle three all this time...waiting there for me and then I finally figured it out, saw what I needed...now I can do something with it. Got it home and it was the missing part, the right fit. And I am determined to keep making more trips to the hardware store that is life...I want, need and deserve to have the right tools to build something architecturally beautiful and lasting...

to be continued....